Saturday, July 24, 2010
This last week I noticed a book on my shelf that I have owned for years. I think I started to read it once and for some reason never finished it. But now, it seemed to whisper to me from across the room and so I took it in my hands and opened it's pages, reading, and reading until within one day I had finished it. I know that when we make it known to the Lord, that we are serious about something, He will guide us to where we can find the direction we seek, and I feel this book gave me some beautiful direction. It moved me and encouraged me in this quest of self discovery and in this longing to fulfill my divine purpose. The book is called Eve and the Mortal Journey by Beverly Campbell.
I love this beautiful poem she wrote:
Do divine assignments whisper to you,
Evoking memories of what's yours to do?
Who you are and are to become!
Holy daughters of the covenant,
'Tis your season to be strong!
Yours to testify steadfast in Christ--
Unifying, teaching, seeking the light,
Challenge accepted--strength in prayer.
Evincing charity, compassion, care.
Courageous daughters of the covenant.
Joyous reasons to be strong!
Called to be sister, partner and Saint.
"Woman of God," heart never faint.
Priesthood supported--prophets to heed.
Willing to follow, ready to lead.
Beloved daughters of the covenant.
Ever needed to be strong!
Assigned and accepted that noblest of roles:
Creator and keeper of precious souls.
Teaching the gospel--a shield of faith.
Covering, protecting, keeping safe,
Trusted daughters of the covenant,
Blessed reason to be strong.
Claim, then, promises of power and depth.
Sacred oaths pledged and kept.
Queens, priestesses, kingdoms, thrones.
Joyous reunions, eternal homes!
Glorious daughters of the covenant.
This is your season to be strong.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Something most of us have in common is our tendency to feel lost. It is so easy to feel like the new girl in aerobics class who doesn't know all of the moves yet, and whose enthusiasm slowly fades as she flails around, arms and legs kicking and punching two beats behind the rest of the class. The truth is this life makes all of us feel out of our comfort zones and quite often out of control, but feeling lost is only part of what we have in common.
I was raised being told that I was a child of God, that we all are. I know that. I know it for sure, and for the past 32 years that knowledge has lead me and supported me, and yet even with that knowledge I have struggled. I have doubted myself. I have been hurt, abused, heart broken, frustrated and angry. I've been lost. But, through everything I have had a desire to trust myself, and to trust God. I have wanted to be my best for myself and for everyone. I have tried to make good choices. I have tried to be true to myself.
I needed something to wake me up though. It happened the day I became a mother. When that mommy badge was placed on my chest in the form of a warm, wiggly baby girl, an electrical charge was released through my body and soul and I was brought to life.....a new life.....my real life. The line between heaven and earth was blurred and my crown of divinity sat shiny and heavy upon my head. I felt it. I knew that I, we, you, me.....all of us are meant to live for so much more. We are a part of something so big and mind blowingly beautiful that our tiny mortal minds can't comprehend it without heavenly help.
The sleeping beauty inside began to toss and turn. Every ounce of strength lifting my heavy eyes upward and outward. I wanted to wake up! I wanted to be aware and remember who I am. I wanted to rise to my full, divine potential and keep the promises I made to the God who created me.
The discovery of truth is always fraught with opposition. It is the way of progression. So my journey has not been, and will not be easy. But if we want to know who we really are, at some point we must all wake up!
*photo taken from here.